Well, this is my first effort at blogging or keeping a diary. I have just returned from a mammoth walk around London to clear my head and I thought that it may be a good idea to het some of my thoughts down. This may not be very interesting to read, but that is not really the point.
The thing that prompted all of this is Luke. I met Luke on New Year's Eve. He is a friend of my friend Andrew. When we met he was in the midst of an anecdote about a guy he had slept withi in a camper van in Grimsby who had a Prince Albert. I suppose I should have been a bit concerned then. Anyway, as I got to know him I found that I really liked him. Within a few days we got to the stage where he would text and email (never call) me constantly. This would normally really annoy me, but for some reason I did not mind and actually began to look forward to them. We then went on a date. No sex though as he wanted to take things slowly. He then went a little odd before coming back to normal and starting the texts and emails again.
This weekend we went on another date. We got terribly drunk and ended up back at his watching some dreadful film with Anne Hathaway. We then went to bed where he got angry because I was tooo sexually aggressive. The next morning we tried to have sex with a hangover but it did not really work. Since then he has really cooled off. No more texts, no emails.
I am basically a bit confused. I suspect that he may be going through some deep emotional trauma etc etc. Although not ideal I could handle this, if he let me in. Or it could be that he just does not want to know, because the sex was dodgy or for some other reason. I just need to know.
So, I have been on a huge walk with my ipod going over and over it in my head. I decided that I cannot really be bothered with someone so inconsistent. I still really like him though. The best advice I can give to someone in this situation is to cool off, do not think about them and let them make the next move. so, that's what I am going to try. Tomorrow.
